I have a new life plan; become Elsie Larson…I haven’t exactly figured out the finer details yet, but this is the general plan, I definitely think I’m on the right track with having the wonderful boyfriend and the craft fetish. I only found the A Beautiful Mess blog for the first time a few weeks ago and I’ve literally almost stalked it:P it’s amazing!
“she may be young but she only likes old things
& modern music it ain’t to her taste
she loves the natural light
captured in black and white.”—Monday Morning, Death Cab for Cutie (via wide-eyes-and-paper-crowns)
“And I’ll be by your side wherever you fall, in the dead of night whenever you call, and please don’t fight these hands that are holding you…my hands are holding you.”—Tenth Avenue North - By Your Side (via confessionsofananxietysufferer)
Telling myself to keep going. You need to keep going, don’t stop; not for anything or anyone.
I won’t let my anxiety control me this time; I’m not accepting defeat. I’m just going to step up and do what I have to… When you want something, you fight for it, right? So why will I let anything stop me?
I fall in love with love songs, because I can't help but smile through the whole thing when they relate to my love:) Plus, this would be a perfect song to play at prom for us:))
'Cause lovers dance when they're feeling in love Spotlight’s shining And every heart in the room will melt This is a feeling I’ve never felt But it’s all about us Suddenly I’m feeling brave Don’t know what’s got into me Why I feel this way Can we dance, real slow? Can I hold you, real close? The room’s hush hush and now’s our moment Take it in, feel it all and hold it Eyes on you, eyes on me we’re doing this right Do you hear that love? they’re playing our song Do you think we’re ready? Oh I’m really feeling it
It is insane to think about how much has changed in my life in just two years. If you would have asked me 3 or so years ago, if I thought this would be the life I would be leading, I’d probably laugh at you. If you ask me now if I would lead the life I lived a year ago, I’d probably smiling and shake my head in silence and give you a very precise reason as to why.
What has changed in one year’s time:
I was saved…again, by our glorious Father:)
Fell in love with someone I can see myself marrying.
Started dressing modestly and with self respect.
Grew a little more confident with my body image.
Really set goals and priorities.
Started getting the best grades I’ve ever had.
Filtered through my true friends.
You see, I have never been happier than I am now. Some days I feel out of place with my new lifestyle and some days I am empowered by it. All together, I am grateful that this change has occured. Before, the happiness I felt was happiness brought on by substance that made me feel happy for an hour or four. Now, my happiness comes from a deep place within my heart. I owe most of this happiness to my involvment with the church. Without it, I would not be this better version of me that I am today.
There are also key people in my life that have continued to empower me to be my best. Two years ago, I met my boyfriend. He has be a key component to my growth and happiness. He inspires, stregthens, loves, and supports me more than anyone I’ve ever known. He
Will I ever go back to my old ways? No. I get asked this question all the time and the answer is always the same.
I’m so in love :) everything is much better than I would have ever believed. I’m ready for my wonderful future in front of me :)